As my third full week of cardiac rehab is coming to a close, I wanted to take a moment to reflect on my experience in that time. There are changes happening for sure, but not all of them are ones that I expected. When I started rehab, I expected to get stronger, increase my stamina, and maybe (hopefully) lose some weight. I didn’t expect my mental health to improve, my family to join me in my quest for better health, or if I am honest, to be very successful. I was hopeful when I started rehab but it felt similar to hoping there would be a pony under the Christmas tree. I might have really wanted it, but I doubted I would really get it. I am so glad to have been wrong.
A big part of cardiac rehab, and a part that I was pretty sure I was going to stink at, was getting my diet under control. There are a few things where diet is concerned that I am excellent at, for example, I am really, really good at watching my sodium intake. It is a rare day that I go over my allotted 2000mg and if I do it isn’t by much. Edema fears my sodium tracking skills. What I am not (or wasn’t) good at, is tracking calories, fat, carbs, anything delicious. My thought has always been a bitter one, “If I have to give up salt, I am not giving up anything else.” and I would add unsalted butter, and eat sugary snacks with reckless abandon. I knew when I signed up for rehab that this attitude would have to change, if I was going to give this opportunity the best chance to make me feel better it couldn’t just be three days of exercise a week. Which is why, 25 days ago I started using an app called Lost It! I feel like they should start paying me because I sing its praises to anyone who will listen. I have religiously recorded every food that passes my lips, and I am happy to report that out of 25 days, my calories have been under budget every single day!
Reasons I love the Lose It! App:
- Losing weight is gamified in a way I personally enjoy, for example each day I log all my meals, it contributes to my streak. I currently have a streak of 25 days and I will be really sad if I mess up my streak before day 100.
- You can buy a subscription for life. Instead of paying $50 bucks a year, you can pay $120 bucks and have the app for life. When you are making a lifestyle change, this option helps solidify that decision. I am not just doing this for the year I am subscribed, this is forever. Perhaps it is just the way my brain works but that distinction makes a difference.
- They have a TON of verified food options, be it fast food or products. Verification means the nutrition information that they have comes straight from the horse’s mouth.
- I am constantly earning little rewards or encouragement. It tells me when they see a healthy pattern such as, I have lower calories for the day when I eat eggs for breakfast. It also tells me how much weight I have lost as compared to household objects (I have lost a desk lamp or 5 pounds) and of course keeps track of my logging streak.
- My sister is using the same app and we can share our progress, recipes etc.
Speaking of my sister, talk about something unexpected that has come from rehab! I am incredibly lucky and thankful to have my big sister join me both in eating better and adding exercise to her routine. It is awesome to go on this quest for wellness (I am sorry I really hate calling it a journey, a journey makes it sound like I am going on a nice trip. A quest, I think, leaves room for overcoming challenges and doing hard things.) together. We check-in, motivate and complain to each other. It has been nice to not feel like I am the only one going through this shift in the way I live my day to day. It is not my place to talk about her business on the internet but it is pretty safe to say that most people could benefit from a shift to a healthier lifestyle. It is very motivating to know that we are in this together and that she wants to be healthy enough to hang out with me (and her kids I guess) for a long time after I get a new heart.
Another thing I didn’t expect but am greatly enjoying is a newfound sense of determination. I think sometimes when living a life that has a lot of limits, those limits start to encroach on parts of your life where you aren’t truly limited. I think there comes a point that you are so used to limits that you impose them in places that they don’t naturally exist. Feeling my edges so to speak has really given me confidence to push myself a bit harder in places that I hadn’t been. Instead of being a lump when I get home, I can spend 20 minutes cleaning the kitchen, or the evening doing laundry. My days don’t HAVE TO end at 3 p.m. I find myself waking up in the morning feeling energized and excited to get to rehab or my solo home workout. I think the best way to describe it is, it feels a little like I am sticking my tongue out and blowing a raspberry in the air, and saying “You can’t catch me!” to my own heart failure. I also think there isn’t a small part of me that is annoyed that I have thus far been unable to get the weight loss medication I have been prescribed due to shortages and misunderstandings. I feel a bit like Thanos saying “Fine, I’ll do it myself” to the system that is keeping me from receiving that particular weight loss jump start.
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Perhaps it is because of the new determination, paired with the feeling of safety that rehab offers that I feel that my efforts at the gym and in my diet have been successful. I am a person who regularly starts and stops this kind of quest. When the going gets tough, I get going…home. Go big or go home? Awesome, I’m headed home. I think I have reached the perfect blend of spite, safety, and determination to be successful. My workouts have quickly increased in length and effort over the last 3 weeks, I am going farther, longer, and faster each day. I feel stronger, physically and mentally. I am exhausted, but because of effort not because my heart is sluggish and my mood is poor.
I am excited that I have 11 more weeks to keep getting stronger, and learning more about what I really can do. Hopefully in that time my muscles will figure out that this isn’t going to stop happening, and will calm down about how hard I am working them. In fact, the muscle aches are pretty much the only thing I can say that is negative about any of this. Does anyone have any hot tips about muscle recovery? My arms and legs are noodles for the whole night after a hard workout. Is that just what happens when you work out hard? Am I doing something wrong? Do I just need a massage? Are my arms and legs secretly noodles and it is only apparent when I try to work out with them? Any help is appreciated. Thanks as always for cheering me on. You guys are awesome and it is really nice to hear from you all, and have your support. In addition to everything else, it is very impactful to know that I have such an awesome cheering section.