They tried to make me go to rehab and I said, “Hell yes! Finally.” Not exactly as catchy as Amy Winehouse but sometimes the truth isn’t catchy. Today, I completed intake for 36 sessions, 14 weeks, of cardiac rehab and I could not be more thrilled. Over the last few months I have tried working out on my own only to run up against the same issue, time and time again. I just get scared. I know to you heart-healthy people that is an odd issue to have, but there comes a point where I don’t know if I am pushing myself or pushing my luck. When that happens I find myself giving up, too scared to keep going. That is why when I saw my doctor last month I asked if I could do more cardiac rehab, and he approved. I knew I would be rolling the dice with insurance whether they would approve it for me or not, and was prepared to only have 6 sessions if they did. Getting 36? A full course? I am so excited. It feels like I finally won a battle after a long, long losing streak.
![](https://capesandrollerskates.com/wp-content/uploads/2024/03/img_2162.jpeg)
![](https://capesandrollerskates.com/wp-content/uploads/2024/03/10.png)
There are so many benefits of cardiac rehab for me that go beyond just the customized workout. For one thing, the scheduled appointments assure I will actually attend. It is far too easy for my brain to talk me out of going to the gym, there is no accountability, and I can justify just about any reason to skip. Conversely, I don’t miss appointments, I am the person who is early to everything. The structure of these sessions will be great for my ADHD brain. They will also give me a safe place to feel for my edges, to learn better what my body feels like when I am entering the danger zone, and when I am just pushing. Learning this will hopefully help me when working out on my own, to have the confidence to continue.
Things I love about cardiac rehab:
- Old men exercising in jeans. I would say 90% of the people in cardiac rehab are men over the age of 60 (heart attacks likely), and of those men 90% wear jeans to work out. It cracks me up.
- I am a unicorn to them. These nurses are used to working with the aforementioned old men in jeans with acquired heart disease and a tendency to push back about all the lifestyle changes they are being asked to make. Not me, this has been my life for 41 years. They aren’t asking anything of me that hasn’t been asked before. Plus, both this time and last the nurses remarked about enjoying learning about my heart, and seemed very amused by me in general. I love being amusing, and I am happy to provide a little break from the old dudes.
- Sonic ice! I love it. Who doesn’t love Sonic ice, that they can access for free?
- Constant feedback on my heart while working out. Blood pressures, BPM, pulse ox, they check it all, and tailor my work out to what my body tells them.
- Help from an honest to goodness nutritionist on tailoring my diet to better serve me. I do a good job with this but guidance and feedback are so nice.
- This is a medication free way of regaining some of my lost heart function and I am all for anything that doesn’t require another pill.
I start my first real workout tomorrow and am so excited to begin. If you see me, please ask me how it is going, or shoot me a message. I need all the encouragement I can get, exercise has long been something I feared and gave up easily on. The more positive reinforcement I can get the better! In fact, one of my questions on my intake paperwork today was about my support system. It wanted to know if I had anyone I could call if I needed support. I didn’t have to think about that question at all, and marked that I had MANY people who I could call if I needed. I truly believe that has always been my magic feather so to speak, and lets me keep flying. Thank you for that.